Here's what's been on my mind the past couple of weeks.
Wednesday, February 5th 2014
I don't think I could be more shocked right now. I picked up an extra evening shift at a different hospital in my company's system so I was home when Robby was getting the kids ready for school. Hendrix likes when you go to the bathroom with him so I obliged him. I don't know what made me pee on a pregnancy test because I wasn't supposed to start my period until Sunday or Monday, but I did.....and it turned positive right away. That means I'm 3 weeks and 3 days. I didn't even know you could even get a positive that early. We had just started trying not even a month ago and since it took us six months to get pregnant with Carson I wasn't expecting to conceive anytime soon especially with my crazy work schedule. I'm still too shocked to be excited.....I mean 3 kids under 4. Yup just let that sink in for a minute.
Tuesday, February 11th, 2014
Finally came out of denial that I am actually pregnant and scheduled my first appointment. Spent the majority of the last week googling whether a early positive pregnancy test indicates twins. Supposedly it doesn't, but I'm still not convinced. I should also mention twins run in both sides of my family.
Thursday, February 20th, 2014
So I've pretty much been dying for the past 5 days of which 2 of the days I couldn't even move off the couch or bed without being sick. Even when laying down I had extreme nauseousness and cramping. Zofran didn't even touch the nausea. I ate maybe 5 crackers and some ginger ale in 48 hours. I'm just now starting to feel semi normal.
Thursday, March 6th, 2014
Finally feeling a lot better with the exception of my emotions being out of control, which reminds me of Carson's pregnancy so naturally I'm starting to think this one is another girl. We still on the fence about finding out the gender. On the one hand we have everything we need so we are basically prepared for either gender, but on the other hand it would be nice to get rid of what gender clothes we wont need since more than likely this is our last baby. I'm also still super paranoid there's more than one in there.
Tuesday, March 18th, 2014
Today I went for my first doctors appointment and ultrasound. I knew right away something was up at the ultrasound. I know what an almost 10 week baby should look like and what I was seeing wasn't one. I knew my dates weren't off because even when we aren't trying to conceive I keep track of things(Type A personality at it's best). The baby only measured 6 weeks with no heart beat. They had me come back two days later for a repeat ultrasound just to be sure, but it was more of the same. So now I get to have a D&C next week since things have yet to happen naturally.
If you would of asked me before what the chances of me miscarrying were I would of told you 0%. I don't have a family history and I've had two relatively normal pregnancies. Clearly I was naive considering 20% of pregnancies end in a miscarriage then there's a good chance nearly every women will experience at least one in her lifetime. It's mind blowing, yet for some reason I thought I was "above" miscarrying as though I had some choice in the matter.
***Those 2 days above where I was super sick is more than likely when I miscarried. The dates match up and my doctor was actually shocked I didn't have any bleeding with the symptoms I described to her.***